Apartment Hunting

I drove around with Vy for about 4 hours looking for apartment. The price is too high and the apartments are usually not worth the price the owner asked. Some have dirty, dark stairs, full of spider web, nesting outside sots. Nobody bothers to sweep. Plastics, paper and garbage along the road. No entrance an easy way to breathe in joy. No attractive invitation to enter. Some are too small, in neighbourhood that is too busy and unattractive. Noises hum from morning to night, eyes of predatory men stare in boredom, lounging in shades away from the heat. It is especially hot today. Each day is full of extreme, rain or shine, hot or cold, the air is stuffed with something unbearable, and life drags its feet hopelessly in limbo. I am beginning to have second thought about Cambodia, whether or not it's worth buying an apartment when I will only be here half time of the year. I think I might be better off building a home out somewhere in the countryside, on my own land, where there's fresh air and a garden. It's nice to be in the city once in awhile for the action, but to live in it everyday is getting to be very aggravating. This is where the job and opportunities are. Out there in isolation isn't the answer either. The countryside is equally frustrating, full of human predicaments, prejudices and poverty. I don't know if I can bear the solitude; yet, I think I can. There are times, I just need to make the decision and go for it. Buy or not to buy an apartment is what I need to come to term with, and as they say, patience pays.